I need strength as I strive to catch up on my assignments.
If I am wrong about this decision, reveal that to me.
Made it back to work ten minutes later than planned/late….so thankful for a job, but this environment is brutal, childlike and like none ever experienced. I pray for the day I can teach and/or open my own business….”Wicondra Stovall, Curriculum Designer and Consultant.”
It’s Monday, August 5th and after a weekend of rest, reconciliation, establishing some order in my home and finally resolving my laptop issues, I awake to find out that my husband lost his work licenses!! What a start to the week….It is believed that they are at Target, way in Fairfield….who really knows….My husband has been dealing with so much. I’m still not sure what he is going through, but know that this cannot make it any better. GOD BE WITH HIM! KEEP HIS EYES ON YOU AND HIS FAITH IN YOU TO RESOLVE THIS… Allow us not to let the misplacement of his cards ruin our day, week, month, ect., but lean on you for direction and have the faith that you will resolve this matter.
Do you ever get tired of running and rationalizing? I spent the whole night tossing and turning, reflecting upon the day’s events, and have decided that I am going to accept, gladly accept, the challenge and STOP RUNNING!
Much of my work experience included positions that I literally gave up on, these are the instances: · 2nd Job Shirtique · 3rd Job Victoria’s Secret · 4TH Job Casual Corner · 5TH Job MehcanicNet · And now I am considering giving this job up as well….you have got to stop Wicondra. I vow to give my job my all. This was my blessing/is my blessing and I refuse to allow some insecure, power hungry manager influence my decision to accept my blessing or flea. Learning how to deal with difficult people and challenging circumstances is an awesome asset to have. I embrace the challenge and will remain for as long as God sees fit. Tonight's class was awesome! I know it may seem so minor to many, but for me it was just amazing participating in our video chat. Though my webcam malfunctioned which prevented me from being seen, I could hear, respond and visualize everyone else. I have always loved learning, but have not been this excited about learning in some time.
A vast majority of our time was spent joining the video chat. For various reasons, many of us had an issue participating. Once everyone joined, Paul began the class by asking the class to share anything on our minds; work related, education related, or something altogether different. It was surprisingly (I suppose I should not have been surprised) laid back, yet quite thought provoking with a mini intro to Clayton Christensen's "disruptive innovation" theory to a concept referred to as "appreciative inquiry." Frantic and angered to say the least about my webcam malfunction, I spent the two hours prior to class attempting to resolve the matter at Best Buy and after several additional errands following, I raced through the door ten minutes prior to class, quickly greeted my husband and children and logged on! I concluded my day analyzing our class, envisioning my future in the field of learning, education and training, even more intrigued than before. A great feeling if I do say so myself! Looking forward to tackling our homework and meeting again. Sometimes I wonder how it is people learn to be considerate…Is it as simple as “good parenting” and what does that look like, or is it something else? Something innate?? I don’t know….
“Loyalty?” “Betrayal?” Define these works… This afternoon I went to Starbucks where a woman apologized for taking longer than she thought I expected. She proceeded to justify her untimeliness with by stating, “I am just having fun.” My response was, “No worries, life is too short, have fun.” She thanked me to no avail, shook my hand, and introduced herself as, “Iris from Israel, the holy land.” Loyalty: 1. The state of quality of being loyal; faithfulness to commitments or obligations. 2. Faithful adherence to a sovereign, government, leader, cause, etc. 3. An example of instance of faithfulness, adherence or the like: a man with fierce loyalties. What Happened
By the second day of camp, I was overwhelmed with excitement, willing and ready to indulge in whatever may come my way, or so I thought. We began the day by programming a maze via Sprite, MIT's children's maze program. This was definitely "hard fun," an expression utilized to express where complication, frustration even, meets 'fun.' I had an amazingly patient partner, Drew, who coach me through programming a maze! I was completely thrilled, but this would soon change as we transitioned to our next course of action: lego building. I never would have thought that I would feel so intimidated by a once so loved childhood toy. We were designated to our learning groups and our trio was assigned the black knight who lost a pair of limbs, yet still continued in combat. We would spend the next two days building and rebuilding our knight. My Response The morning started off great! In learning how to program Sprite, I felt as though I accomplished something, but as the day progressed and we began to delve more and more into building our lego, robotic black knight, my confidence dwindled and frustration arose. Feelings of helplessness set in and I began to question if Learning Technologies was the program for me... Reasons for My Response Completing the task at hand is important to me, quitting is rarely an option. With that, if I am given a task, I will study it, analyze it, and strategize methods of completion until I am blue in the face. I could not do that with the lego project and this undoubtedly frustrated me. Not only was this a group assignment, there was a push for time. These two pressures combined, left me desolate I felt as though I did not contribute much at all. My teammates seemed to grasp the building concepts much faster than I and this bothered me, yet functioning as a group was equally important to me. For this cause, I struggled between wanting to know how to perform every move and once again relinquishing control, submitting myself to my teammates and understanding that no one person knows everything. This very fact makes teamwork so special, we all bring varying strengths to the table after spending the next 24 hours reflecting, chatting with my roommates and professors, I realized that Learning Technologies truly was the program for me. What Happened
On the first day of MALT camp, I had the pleasure of meeting Dr. Bill Moseley, Dr. Paul Sparks and MALT 16! We began by obtaining legend designed name tags that would define our learning groups. The theme of the week: "Monty Python and the Holy Grail." My learning group and I began our first activity by creating the introduction to our camp video, later we diced and minced onion and garlic and I learned what it meant to chiffonade basil and brunoise carrots. The day concluded with us creating "professional boards" in which we all had the pleasure of presenting. My Response By the conclusion of the first day, I was anxious to fully comprehend the connection between each element and learning technologies. The "process" was fun, but it didn't make sense to my systematic, structured mind. The introduction was probably the most challenging aspect of the day, but this was a once and a lifetime opportunity and I surely didn't want to miss out on the fun!! After seven years of marriage and two children (not that long I know, but long enough) I am no stranger to the kitchen, so instinctively I wanted to take charge and begin chopping up the vegetables; however, one of my goals for the week was to submit myself to the process and my learning mates, relax and enjoy the ride. This was not easy... Reasons for My Response Far too often, I care too much about what others think of me. From one perspective, being cognizant of my behavior relative to others is an awesome trait to have, while on the contrary, thinking too much about the feelings and thoughts of others may be a hindrance for opportunities to grow. With that in mind, I wanted to capitalize on the moment and be free, causing me to jump in front of the camera, boldly proclaiming that I am "Princess Wicondra, wife of Rodney..." Relinquishing control is a major issue I have been working on for some time, and with that, I utilized the cutting exercise to take the passenger seat, to be led rather than lead, and to be inclusive as opposed to reclusive. |